Okay reason being firstly, it's Gabriel's birthday. That boy is finally 21. After all that shit of planning, this day finally came. However some people just had to spoil that surprise -.- Irritating, I so knew it that some asshole would cocked it up. True enough, but oh well at least he feels happy :) I was pissed like shit really like shit.

Friday, I had to trick Gabriel going to ECP. Haha, so I did. I lied about bringing him to his favourite oyster in the end we ended up eating Kebabs. And some people, just keep irritating the shit out of me. Whatever lah okay, why do you even pay for the fucking chalet when you don't even bother staying over. Who doesn't want to sleep on their own bed? Say good brother or good friend. Lan jiao lah seriously.

Saturday, woke up and had Subway! We rented bicycles near our chalet and cycled there. It feels so good cycling after so long! Like seriously, fucking good. I feel damn young and as though there were no more problems in my life anymore. Then we went to PP. Got more food and the cake! Na beizzz, the cake didn't turn out well :( Below my expectation. Ian cycled Heather with the cake back to the chalet. Damn zai loh! Then we played mini-mahjong awhile and then we decided to go and start fire. Haha we took quite long to start cause the fire-starters were shitty. Then people came, cut cake and stuff... Then we played mahjong till like about 4 plus? We were so tired but none of us could sleep, then we laughed until we sleep. Haha so cute loh. I couldn't sleep at first thinking about what I found out, thank god! Otherwise, I think I would have headache and just not sleep again.

Sunday, woke up at like what 10.30am to check out? Heng my sister came cause it was like drizzling while we were waiting for cab. Slept awhile and then we decided to go out. We went to Suntec to catch She's outta my league. I swear her body is really power pac to the max! Haha but God is fair! She got retarded toes. But before that was retail therapy for me! I needed it man! 15 minutes 4 clothes $90. Not bad ah, I haven't lost my skills yet ^^ Haha then Gabriel bought me a new headband! Haha really happy girlzzz loh!

Monday, reported at Suntec for SIWW (Singapore International Water Week) at 7.30am? Slacked until like 9 plus then started doing work loh :( Whole class went to break and smoke together! So cute ah! We were reserved and we had some problems with China people. Only certain people could enter the room to edit their slides but those fuckers want to go inside and have their own meeting. We let them in for the first time and the management was already quite pissed. Then NVM, second time! They want to go in there and eat. Irritating fuck, then chase them don't want to go. We got no choice and we asked people of higher authority to chase them out and they were so angry themselves too. Then we Bingo all the way~ Haha fucking fun sialllll~

Tuesday, report at 7.30 also. Then we sat at Pan Pacific doing nothing. Drank tea, use internet awhile, steal tea, go smoke, bingo, talk cock, then go home liaosss. Fucking cold and boring lah. Thank god for us, at least we don't have to stand up and usher or something. So we had to have a mini-celebration for Mr Fatboy and we went to the loof! It was nice man but what a pity I would have enjoyed it more if I wasn't so tired.

Wednesday, need to report at 7 :( Poor me seriously. FML x 100000 times. So yup again at Pan Pacific do nothing, talk cock, message all the way sial plus got plug behind me ^^ Don't need scared low batt :) Went with classmates for awhile, but I got to buy stuff :( So I went G2000 with Gabriel. Bought like 2 skirts, 2 pants and 1 shorts. Happy girl again sialzzz.

Today, report at 7.30am and DO NOTHING AT ALL! Wtf? Went to watch Toy Story 3 with classmates. Haha makes me feel like as though I'm neglecting my toys :( Finally today feels great going home early :D

These few days was all about therapy, therapy and more therapy cause everything just hurt so much and so bad. Yeah, the truth hurts but at least enough for me to see what kinda person he is. But it only proved one thing, it's time to get over. I'm not stupid and it shows that I was right of being insecure. Sigh but right now, I hate myself alot. I wish I can erase all that I can remember and all my memories and wake up being a new person. I'm so tired of life, I can never get enough of problems. Everyday I have new shit. Before old ones get cleared, new ones keep coming in. Until sometimes, I feel that I can't breathe. My life is always filled up with problems and heartaches. I keep throwing unwanted tantrums and I really pity Gabriel for having to tolerate all these shit.

So I have decided, I will never love someone again, never ever will.

I must add oil! Cannot sian sian in class, must contribute!

And don't talk so much, cause I think I hurt someone when I thought I was kidding.

So please please, be more tolerant towards me if I offend you or something, I'm sorry.